Making Choices

Today I received some promotional material and suggestions for my book from the publishing company.  As I read through the suggestions, I quickly realized that I was physically unable to follow their suggestions due to my disability and associated speech problems.  I immediately fell into a downward spiral of anger and self-pity.  While the spiral was happening I realized it was not useful and tried to get out of it through distractions, which did not work.  What did work was confronting my fears and self-pity through meditation, laughing at myself a bit and then realizing that I had other choices.  I am still exploring choices but in a love and faith-based way.